Beautiful Mess by Claire Christian (A Review)

Processed with VSCO with a4 presetGenre:  Ya, Contemporary.
Year Of Publication: August 28th 2017 .
Publisher: Text Publishing.
Pages: Paperback, 286 pages.

My Rating: 5 out  of 5 stars


“And I’ve got to keep sorting my shit out, because life is messy.
But fuck, it can be beautiful. “

This is my new favorite mental health book that deals with depression and anxiety book. 💓

This was just so beautifully written, and flowed so nicely. And had someone of the most beautiful qoutes and relatable liner, that made me go hell ya, me af!

“You do not need to apologize for being on the planet. You have a right to be here. What you have to say is valid. We want to hear it. None of this bullshit martyr stuff. Own your art. Own you existence. Don’t be dickheads. Simple?”

“You’re lucky. Rae mutters this; she doesn’t talk much.
“Yeah, I guess.” It’s weird when that happens, when someone says something that makes you realize that what you think is normal really isn’t.”

‘I tend to not really make choices that are based on my own happiness and so I figured l’d start trying to do that a bit more. i don’t think I’m one of those people who are naturally happy, you know? I’m definitely not one of those carefree people who go with the flow and wake up every morning in a good mood. I’m not that guy. tend to live in a state of, well, anxiety.I’m not confident. I know, shock horror, I hardly think you’d have worked that out by now. “

The main characters had me falling in love with them. They were so broken and vulnerable and I loved their journey.
Ava was like don’t come near me “rawr” persona that made people want to stay one feet away from her. She was dealing with the loss of her best friend. And how just go on with the gaping whole in her heart.
And Gideon was a cute little hurt puppy dog. Suffering from depression and sadness. And just trying not to be awkward as hell and freak out in every social situation.
He made lists and had a mental conversation before doing things and it was just so relatable his anxious little omg I have to meet a human what do I do now thing. Because honestly Gideon same bruh!
Also the parents were kinda amazing 😂 on both the mc’s side. They were funny understanding and very lovely. And I loved that so much. All three had such quriky and fun personalities…

The discussion about mental health, depression and anxiety in this book was so good.And I loved how natural, raw and beautiful it was. How positive it was and in trying to help deal with things and how their were therapists. How despite all the negatives this books made you go and told you and made you see how their are positives too and how you can find beauty around you and I loved that.

“I don’t know what your fascination with being normal is. I don’t think any of us are normal. We’ve all got shit going on, but we’re al trying to convince each other that we’re normal. I think it’s fucked. I think it would be so much better if we were all just more honest and said when things were bad, or that we weren’t okay or were sick or we were happy or whatever, l used to be one of those people you talked about those people who would wake up in a good mood. I think it’s just in you, you know. You’re either a positive person or you’re a negative person”

I was all in all for Ava and Gideons relationship. It’s starts in such a little way and the way it builds. It just haven’t felt this strong about two characters in a while and it made me really happy to root this hard for my favourites 💓

This book gave me all the feels. The good the bad, the happy the sad. The oh so relatable that made me go oh yes. That me.

The writing was a beauty tbh. The qoutes and all the one liners I have from this one are way too high!

This book had letters and list! Loved loved that part 😂😭 And beautiful poems. I just loved the dynamics of this all.

You know a book that leaves you warm and fuzzy and leaves you a little gobsmacked this one was one of them. And I love that feeling soo much. So yeah hello to another one of my favourites 😭

I did have a problem with the last few pages…. But I can also understand why it went that way . . . . and yeah the last page did kinda make up for it.

Over all,this book was amazingly beautiful inside and out. With that beauty of a cover that freaking shines to eveything that was inside.

“Do you know what the Japanese say about broken things?” Robbie looks at me. “Kintsukuroi they call it. They take broken pieces of porcelain and they repair cracks with gold. Making it as it was, but new again. They believe that the cracks can make something more beautiful, more valuable.”
“Is that for real?”
“Have I ever lied to you?”
“They believe that the cracks shouldn’t be hidden, that they’re part of their history, and should be shown. If you’re going to show the cracks, why not show them beautifully.”

(I love how this qoute from the books is the inspiration for the cover it makes it 100x more love able because now it has a story behind it)

From amazing mental health rep to amazing characters. It was just instant love for me. It was so positive and reading it just gave me so many burst of happy energy but also sad times too. But overall pretty lovely experience

Please pick it up! Pretty please! 😭💓

Thank you to Text Publishing for sending me a copy.


The Accidental Bad Girl by Maxine Kaplan ( A Review)

1526385360848.jpgGenre:  Ya, Contemporary.
Year Of Publication: May 15th 2018.
Publisher: Amulet Books.
Pages: Hardcover, 384 pages
My Rating: 3 out  of 5 stars.


After getting caught hooking up with her best friend’s ex on the last day of junior year, Kendall starts senior year friendless and ostracized. She plans to keep her head down until she graduates. But after discovering her online identity has been hacked and she’s being framed for stealing from a dealer, Kendall is drawn into a tenuous partnership with the mastermind of a drug ring lurking in the shadows of her Brooklyn private school. If she wants to repair her tattered reputation and save her neck, she’ll have to decide who she really is—and own it. The longer she plays the role of “bad girl,” the more she becomes her new reputation. Friends and enemies, detectives and drug dealers—no one is who they appear to be. Least of all Kendall. 


I read someone comparing this book to Easy A in their review. And i was like oh yeah that’s an example i would use to describe this book.


Kendall, was a very, Olive, esuqe character. She is such a badass, when trapped in such  impossible situations she just handles them like a boss! She never once back down or moans about whats happening to her. Just go with the flow like the boss she is. And stands by the choices she has made.

Other characters: 

The side characters are very interesting, and some do not turn to be who you think they are (ooooo). But everyone has such a nice backstory and reasons for what they have done. And they provide a nice backbone to the story


It is a mixture of mystery, mixed in with a dash of contemporary and a whole load of action. It never fails to delivers on that high “omg this happened”, till the end of the books. The last few chapter are indeed very thrilling.


This book has high themes of feminism, although in the first few chapters it looked to me like it would be basic girl against girl timeline. But its refreshing how this book handles it all. Their are some great female friendships happening in this book. Its very dark, and does delve into a lot of topics pertaining our society. I love how it handles slut shamming and labeling. Being blackmailed into situations and all that.


Overall, this book is a nice mixture of action, mystery and contemporary, that does keep you hooked until the end for answers. And I love the fact that despite all the wrongs happening in this book it always finds a silver lining, and has a lot of good happening too.

Thanks to ABRAMS Kids/Amulet Books for providing me with an ARC of this book.

Sky in the Deep by Adrienne Young (A Review)

Genre:  Ya, Fantasy.
Year Of Publication: April 24th 2018.
Publisher: Wednesday Books.
Hardcover, 352 pages.
My Rating: 3.75 out  of 5 stars.
“I was the ice on the river. The snow clinging onto the mountainside.”

Ah where to start with…. in this review?? This was one of my most anticipated book of this Spring and I just wanted it so badly (you have no idea how many emails i sent to the publicist lol) *hides in a corner*. Yeah so finally as you can see i managed to get a galley……

If you didn’t already know this book is about vikings #Rawr cue the action!!!!!!!!


Blurb Shlurb:
There are two clans Aska and Rikki , that are caught in an ancient rivalry against each other. Our protagonist Eelyn belongs to Aska clan and is fiercely loyal to them. One day while fighting against the enemy, to her astonishment she see her bother fighting along with the enemy, the same one who she watched die 5 years ago!!!! Anyway while trying to make sense of the “betrayal” or being “back from the dead thing”……. she is captured by the RIKKI and (//Cue Music//) hence starting the story line of #LivingWithTheEnemy

Oh yeah i liked her. She didn’t have that snow flake thing going on for her that the usual supposed bad asses in Ya do. She was actually very resourceful and was indeed a warrior that could chop people up in a second. But she also has depth to her with a lot of loyalty, fierceness and protectiveness for the people she loved.

When she is captured, seeing her deal with the new environment, living with her enemies and watching their rituals her mind ticking and seeing her torn between her beliefs and what she saw around her and the turmoil it brought was the best part for me.

The characters in this story are deeply fierce and each one of them is so driven by love and loyalty. All of them had emotions that were so rooted in their love for family and clan.

The romance in this book was the enemies to love trope. My favorite. It was slow and didn’t feel like insta love or the huh feeling you get when you can’t make sense why they are suddenly together. It was a minute part of the story. But it makes the story so so much better.

This story is epic and bloody. People get chopped down, lots of blood and gory. Filled with axes, swords and armor, and all the fury that battle bring. Ah their are one or two animal sacrifices so yeah trigger warning for that 🤐

The world building isn’t done in the vast sense of the world but we get the jest of the two clans and their locations. Their culture, habitat, colors, customs and clothing.

The only thing I have to complain about is that it felt like it was missing something. I needed this book to have something more, maybe a little longer. More interaction, and scenes between the people. The story felt it was over in like a span of 1-2 weeks. And I think it should have had more time and needed more into it to maybe built it up a little more.

Also it’s a standalone. OMG it’s so frickin hard to find fantasy standalone. So this quality was awesome!!

Overall, this story was fun to read. Lots of Vikings and blood and fierceness involved. Interwoven with loyalty and love for family its a easy quick, fast pace short read that will be over quickly.

*ARC generously provided by the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review*

Ash Princess by Laura Sebastian ( A Review)

IMG_20180405_230910_249Genre:  Ya, Fantasy.
Year Of Publication: April 24th 2018.
Publisher: Delacorte Books for Young Readers.
Hardcover, 432 pages.
My Rating: 2.5 out  of 5 stars.

I’d like to thank Penguin Random House International for my copy!

Warning: This book has explicit violent content. Trigger warning for abuse.

Ash Princess is about a girl whose country has been stolen from her and now a evil tyrant rules her country and she is his new puppet. But suddenly triggered by chain of events, she decides to fight back.

Ash Princess though was fun for me to read, but yes its was a Hodge podge of tropes and ideas already done in Ya. And Yes it has a triangle and Yes a snowflake that suddenly decides to grow a spine.

Plot: The plot was kinda really unbelievable for me…… How some things were able to happen so suddenly and their were no consequences??!??! And like from the moment Theo decides to fight back things become so easy, and no one notices the fishy parts??!?!

Characters: Theo; err i have no idea…. she goes from a fearful puppet to being a rebel in two nano seconds into the story and omg no amount of character development could account for such fast changes in a person. Søren; was the snowflake son of the tyrant. I don’t know…. his character really felt the epitome of good guy trope to me. And he fell so easily in love lol. And had basically no sixth sense tbh. Blaise, He was also such a trope-y character. The one who has all the anger and rebellion growing inside of him and is kinda controlling. Yeaph that was him. Cress; she was a mixture. Some times i liked her because of the choices she made but than in the end she is loyal to evil people so meh!

Romance: Ah for the holy love to trope!! I haaaaaate this one so much #triangles!!!!!! Why cant we get rid of this crap alreaaaaaady omg -__- Also one pairing of the triangle didn’t have any chemistry what so ever i meaaaaaaaaaann! Why force stuff!???!!!!

Their is a theme for heavy stuff through out the story . Its full of slavery, torture, rape, beatings. All a lot of grimness between every few pages. So yeah beware of that, if you are a light hearted one this isn’t for you.

Ah although the magical aspect is nothing new. But i did enjoy the whole idea of gems and them giving powers and guardians concept of it.

Overall, this despite being nothing original and inventive did give me entertainment…. Hence i deem it 2.5 stars!!!









The Smoke Thieves (The Smoke Thieves #1) by Sally Green (A Review)

1521987772552-02Genre:  Ya, Fantasy.
Year Of Publication: May 3rd 2018.
Publisher: Penguin Uk.
Paperback, 512 pages.
My Rating: 4.5 out  of 5 stars

Thank you Penguin Uk the ARC in exchange for an honest review.



I really enjoyed this book………. a lot.  One of my new favorites!!! It is an epic young adult fantasy with five POVs coming together from all over the world and colliding  together with a BAAM!!! I love how we get to see all five of them spread out in different countries and doing their own things without realizing where their destiny is taking them, and that too on a wild, bloody ride.

So we have our five characters/Povs:

A princess: Catherine.

A Soldier:  Ambrose.

A traitorMarch.

A thief:    Edyon.

A hunter: Tash.

Yeah, its a book with a lot of Povs and yes sometimes some of them got very boring. But  I personally did enjoy reading all 5 voices. Specially because they were all spread out geographically. And seeing them move like pawns in the directions they were #collison was fuuuuuuuun!

Catherine was a favorite. I loved her arc from being a mousy, oppressed princess to her finding her sea legs and  being so fierce and courageous. #GirlPower

Tash was another fav. She is 13 and so feisty.  She would literally challenge people 5 times bigger than her without batting an eye. Sass Queen.

Ambrose; well he was the embodiment of the the tropey male interest who is all macho and is always like i must prot3ct. I don’t know we didn’t explore his personality much for me to like/dislike him.

Edyon was fun i liked his character. He was mischievous and kinda funny sometimes.

March; Errr meh! He was such a blind follower. Oh My Word he annoyed meee!!!!!!!

I also really really liked Tzsayn; Yoo Sally please don’t do my boy dirty in the future okaaaaay!!!?!?!?



The plot gives you a complex feels and you get so many perspectives and so many things are happening that are spread out and are on a vast level. And you just have fun and are intrigued too see how all these puzzles that are spread out so thin will come together.

The is a whole mystery about demons and demon smoke ( # que the titleeee). And i cannot wait to explore it more in the further books.


World Building:

I loved the world building so much. How each place had its own little quirks and habits. How people off Pitoria would dye their hair to show loyalty to the Lord they supported! How Brigant was so cruel! The whole geographical locations of the world. All the politics and the rivalry; the intense-ness of it. The war that’s brewing on the horizon.


My only problem with this was some plot twists weren’t explained in this one i hope they do touch up on that in the next book. Because i really need explanation of some of the motivation.


This book is either gonna be a hit or a miss for some people! It was a huge hit for me. I enjoyed the complex span of it. It starts off promising but by the end its bloody, fast paced and adventurous. It sets up the stage for later looks nicely and excitingly. It ends up on such a cruel cliff hanger that you end up going damn it, i have to wait forever for the next book now!

January – March 2018 : A Quarterly Reading Wrap Up!

Processed with VSCO with a4 presetRead a total of 23 books this quarter, thats like 10619 pages according to Goodreads!! AHH ….. i think it is a very promising start to the year!!!!

January Reading Wrap Up:

I had a good reading month in January!!! Half of the books i  read were like 500 pages long! Soo yes #satisfied

  1. Even the Darkest Stars by Heather Fawcett.
  2. The City of Brass by S.A. Chakraborty .
  3. The Host by Stephenie Meyer.
  4. Mistborn : The Final Empire by Brandon Sanderson..
  5. Mistborn : The Well of Ascension by Brandon Sanderson..
  6. Love Life And The List By Kasie West.
  7. 220 Pages Of Mistborn: Hero of Ages by Brandon Sanderson..



The City of Brass!!

February  Reading Wrap Up:

  1. The Night We Said Yes by Lauren Gibaldi.
  2. The Beau & The Belle by R.S. Grey.
  3. (The rest of ) Mistborn: Hero of Ages by Brandon Sanderson.
  4. Orphan, Monster, Spy by Matt Killeen.
  5. Along For A Ride by Elsie Chapman.
  6. Tess Of The Road by Rachel Hartman.
  7. A Place In The Sun by R.S. Grey .
  8. Ever The Hunted by Erin Summerill .


The Beau & The Bell.


Tess Of The Road!!!


March  Reading Wrap Up:

  1. Ever The Brave by Erin Summerill.
  2. From Lukov with love by Mariana Zapata .
  3. Sky in The Deep by Adrienne Young.
  4. Love Aaron by Mariana Zapata.
  5. Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi.
  6. Unravel Me by Tahereh Mafi.
  7. Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi.
  8. Restore Me by Tahereh Mafi.
  9. Brave Enough by Kati Gardner.
  10. 264 Pages of The Smoke Thieves By Sally Green.


From Lukov with love.



Are some of your favourites on my list? What were some of your favourites from this year quarter of 2018? Your disappointments? Would love hear below!!



Brave Enough by Kati Gardner ( A Review)

Processed with VSCO with a4 presetGenre:  Ya, Contemporary.
Year Of Publication: August 21st 2018.
Publisher: Flux.
Paperback, 208 pages.
My rating: 3.5 out  of 5 stars


Thank you to NetGalley the e-ARC in exchange for an honest review.

This story is about Cason and Davis. Cason is the youngest ballerina in the Atlanta Ballet Conservatory, But her life is turned a 360 degree when she gets diagnosed with Bone Cancer. Davis has survived cancer, but his drug addiction nearly killed him. Now 7 months sober sentenced to do community service on the cancer ward where he was treated, his life collides with Cason where she is also being treated….

The title of this book fits this story so well. This book is so bloody positive through and through. Being BRAVE is the theme throughout both Cason’s and Davis’s arc.

Things i liked:
– Cason’s Journey; I quite enjoyed her arc. The journey from shock to acceptance and moving on (to some level).
– Davis’ struggle; The representation and the struggle of a former addict and all the temptation he faced all around and how real it was.
– How there were no extra over the top villains; this was one of my favorite thing about this book. It didn’t had to make things and events extra like a soap opera. Like people asked for help and were able to maintain strength through out. Like no bad guys got away with being shit ass!
– All the help that was around when it was needed; i loved that their were so many people around to help all the support groups. It was just so positive and empowering that yes you can do this. And so many people are yes indeed around you rooting for you!!
– The representation of the disabled and sick; Their are so many diverse and disable and recovering people in this book. And all their view, struggles are discussed.
– Addiction Talk This book deals extensively with addiction, i found it so positive. It has like such a big message that YES HELP IS HERE FOR YOU! I loved that and their were support groups and the NA meeting. And how the parents, doctors and friends around were so supportive and helpful.
– Authenticity Since this book draws from the authors own experience with cancer. This felt real and genuine.
– Side Supporting Characters: Each one of the side characters were so different, fun diverse and supportive.

Things i didn’t like:
-The insta love: I am so sad about this tbh. It had so much potential sigh like so bloody much!! But they ruined it. The like so instantly fall together ugh, it could have worked so well if it didn’t just happen in an instant. I mean she doesn’t even know him other than his name from school, when they meet and BAAM they end up together.
– Camp: The camp is mentioned like 3948348 times through out the book and in the end we just get glimpse of like two to three events not even day!??!?!?!?
– The mom Oh she start as such villain and a bitch but than she out of nowhere get a conscience?
-Lack of back story for: The story starts with the feeling that Davis knows of Cason and maybe kinda likes her. But we never get why and how he knew her from school.

Overall this book is filled with a nice, positive and authentic representation of cancer patients, survivors and addiction. You should definitely pick it up for that alone!…

P.s The struggle was real with Cason’s name through out this review xD The amount times i wrote Canson and Canon was to darn high!!